This weekend was a bit of a strange one if I'm honest. The meal I went to on Saturday wasn't that good to be honest; I realised that I don't really fit in with my family. I spoke to my Uncle a little bit, but other than that I seem to be miles apart from everyone else. It's so horrible to be sat around a table with your own family feeling like you don't belong. Anyway, the meal went on until about 10, which meant that I still had to go home to pick up my bags before going to my girlfriend's house. By the time I got there, the party was practically over. I felt like I had missed pretty much everything, but I was glad that I was there to make sure my Girl was okay. We didn't sleep at all Saturday night; we just couldn't seem to get to sleep at all, so we spent the night just making small talk really. I was also a little worried about her becoming ill during the night, so I think part of me subconsciously stayed up to look after her.
Sunday was spent lazing about but unfortunately, my Girl was really poorly. I did my best to look after her; I cuddled her whilst she napped and I made her food and stuff to try and make her feel better. I did sleep on Sunday night, but I kept waking up every time She moved just in case something was wrong; I think I woke up to check on Her and then went back to sleep again. It was nice though, being able to take care of Her and prove to Her that I'll always be there for Her and I'd do anything. Whilst She was asleep, I cuddled her to me; it was so nice, being able to just hold Her and know that She was safe in my arms. We both had school on Monday so it was an early wake-up for us both, but I have to admit, getting up for school is so much easier when you can have a little cuddle in bed with your girlfriend first :')
Monday was quite a crap day really; She was still ill and ended up going home, and I felt ill too; having to stay until like 5 after school was something I didn't want to do, so I ended up crying and just walking out. Of the evening though, I managed to help my Girl write an essay which made me feel better; I love to know that I've helped her even just a little bit. I'm not sure why, I suppose it's just because She is so amazing and so perfect, I want Her to be happy and knowing that I've helped makes me happy too.
I think today was one of those days that although things seem to have just gone wrong, I still can't help but fall in love all over again. Work wise, She didn't have a very good day, but I tried my best to give her a cuddle and a few kisses to let her know that I was still proud and I was there to help. We were in lesson together for two hours this afternoon and it was one of those lessons in which we don't really get much done, but just spend a little time having a laugh and a joke with each other and, maybe a little flirting ;) Honestly, She is so beautiful and just, so perfect to me, I fall in love over and over again. It's difficult to imagine one person meaning so much, but I can genuinely say that She is my everything and I can't imagine my life without Her. I wish She could see herself how I see Her because then She'd know how I truly feel. I really wish we could be together again this weekend, so She can lie in my arms again and I can take care of Her properly. I miss Her all the time and I know I shouldn't, but I always worry about Her.
The next 3 days at school are probably going to be rubbish, as usual, the only thing I have to look forward to is seeing Her beautiful face everyday. I just hope I don't get too much work, I could do with a break (couldn't we all though). I hate Sixth Form but there isn't much longer left anyway.
I must now try and complete my composition for music; it isn't going to get finished but oh well, I've given up anyway haha.
Chin Up and Peace Out xox
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